“The world is full of ugly things that you can’t change,
Pretend it’s not that way, that’s my idea of faith.
You can blow it off and say there’s good in nearly everyone,
Just give them all a chance, just give them all a chance.”
– Ben Folds
“Do you love me?”.
I rolled over to face her, trying to hide the look I could feel making its way across my face. “What did you say?”, I replied, knowing full well what she’d asked.
“I asked whether you love me”, she said patiently, not breaking eye contact. She paused. “It’s just that sometimes I wonder”. She dropped her gaze.
“Yes”, I replied. “I do love you. Is that a problem?”.
“No”, she said, nestling her head into my chest. “I love you too”.
I held her until she had drifted off to sleep, then I slipped quietly out of the bedroom. Following the road down to the junction at the end, past the pub, I could hear the muffled sounds of a few locals having a lock-in.
I turned left out of town, the sodium glare of the streetlamps casting long shadows that seemed to be walking faster than me. Underfoot the tarmac seemed almost soft, like walking on bare earth.
I did love her, it was true. More than I’d ever loved anyone. But somehow I knew that it wouldn’t be enough; that it would be over soon.
Love Is Only A Feeling, you see.
“The road is long and the lights are bright,
Just because you’ve lived here all your life doesn’t make it right.”
– The Darkness